gimmie what chu got

FACT : What doesn't kill you makes you wanna do it again.

Posted by crystal13 at 12:47 AM 0 comments    

seriously..... how am i supposed to respect you if you are going to love me for who i am ?

Posted by crystal13 at 7:46 PM 0 comments    

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When I finally met with my surgeon... to go over my options... I ended up with more devastating news.... apparently there is not one but 3 fibroids...one the size of a softball one the size of a peach and the third one is the size of a.........well lets just say the overall shock caused me to go into an O.B.E. when I finally came back into my body... I guess we were talking about different procedures, needing a bowel suspension, recovery time four months....and that if I didn't have them removed I might not make it to age 51.....Horrified yet relieved at the same time .....from the thought of this inside of me. I wanted them cut out of me immediately. I was so upset. All the questions I had for my Dr had blown out the window.... When I calmed down.... I said to my Dr... "no matter what happens .. no matter what you find (because they truly don't know how deep the fibroids run) you have to promise me I will still have my uterus"....he said "he could not and that a hysterectomy was my only option"...

..."Over my dead body am I having a hysterectomy".... is what i told him.. "That's not an option for me".... "EVER"....As of last month I started radical alternative therapy's combined with chemo injections... and judging by the way I feel after my first month of chemo.. its gonna be a long 5 months.

Funny when you are headed toward an outcome too horrible to face, you go looking for a second opinion. And sometimes, the answer you get just confirms your worst fears. But sometimes, it can shed new light on the problem, make you see it in a whole new way. After all the opinions have been heard and every point of view has been considered, you finally find what you're after - the truth. But the truth isn't where it ends, that's just where you begin again with a whole new set of questions.

Posted by crystal13 at 11:21 PM 0 comments    

When fate comes into play
sometimes choice goes out the window
love.. like life is about making choices
and fate has nothing to do with it
everyone thinks true love is so romantic....

if Juliet was so in love then why did she drink a bottle of poison and go to sleep in a mausoleum?

Posted by crystal13 at 8:03 PM 0 comments    

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